Flooded with tears.

For the past 3weeks, alot of things had happened.
Cry, laughter, cry, laughter.
Its really stress when the problem came across again.
Again and again. -.-
I treasure everyone alot. Why do i have to choose.
If i had given a choice, i really dont wish to choose.
16years of sistership. Yes, its 16 fucking years.
I'll always do what you say, cause you're my beloved sister.
But this time, i really dont know what to do.
If you were me, i guess you also dont know what to do.
I know, i know. Family is the most important in our life.
But i need my friends too.
I'm like retarded now, crying and typing at the same time. -.-
I'll go home earlier and try not to go out everyday, okay ?
Okay, i saw your blog with all our pictures. the moment i saw it, I cry out.
I really miss you too. But .. I really can't choose between both of you.
Its reallyreally hard for me. I wanna cry it hard out.
But i still try to tolerate no matter what. I dont wanna show you my weak side.
ILY, with my tears falling too.

And daddy, i know you care for me alot.
I know you'll always support me when i've problems.
But if you know what happen, i guess you wont wanna support me anymore.
I might be a useless daughter. Whatever you called.
Now i realise, everytime you called you nag and nag and nag.
Is because you really care for me and love me alot.
But to me in the past, the more you nag the more i dont feel like talking to you.
And even worst, dont feel like going home.
Sister say, home is just like my hotel.
Reached home late, bathed and then sleep.
Next morning, bathed then went out again.
I know nowadays we all dont talk often anymore.
Doesn't mean i've forgotten about this family okay.

Mummy, i really miss you alot too. Dont stress about me anymore.
And Cy, i hope you'll be more mature abit.
Dont everytime make/find trouble please.
What if i wont be there to help you anymore ?

I'm sorry to all, I'm not worth your tears.